OKAY so in Spanish today i had to do a mini presentation on a project i did i had to say

mi cumpleanos es el diez de diciembre
tengo trece anos
me gusta dibujar y nadar
no me gusta ni ayudar en casa ni estudiar
soy artistica y artrevida
no soy ni ordenada ni seria

in under 20 seconds memorized --- now that was not the problem i had it completly memorized and could do it consistenly in 12 seconds---the problem was when i got to the part were i accually had to present (in front of the teacher not the entire class...at least that's how it was supposed to be but im getting ahead of myself) i was doing good until i got to "no me gusta ni..." then the whole class simultaneously shut up and looked at me and i just blanked like i didnt have to use those exact verbs/ajectives but all the spanish left my brain and thats all how far i got

im so stupid i mean it would have been bettr if like i was completly clueless and didnt study i had it down and i CHOKED ... AARG ... i spent the rest of that period trying not to cry (lukily it was 2nd to last) i did pretty well...i strive to be the best and when im not its okay unless i do somthing completly retarded like CHOKING... so i would hav been fine if nobody talked to me for the rest of the day but nope ... concerned classmates asked what was wrong...and i was like crying in the middle of the computer lab( was in there 4 bio) i try to pride myself on my ability to not cry in public but like .... GAH
...and to everybody else an F wouldnt be a big deal and for me to if it werent for these circumstances... I CHOKED i never choke ive been in numerous performances and ive never chocked or forgotten lines EVER ... until now

well thers my estrogen splurge of the year...usually i run on testosterone(i think ... im not sure ...)and adrenaline

*heartheart crycry*//BECKY


ps. if you didnt catch on becky is me

and im not feeling llama i my pc wouldnt let me chancge it though